I Thought of You Today

I thought of you today.
I missed the conversations that we didn’t have,
in the things that we didn’t experience together,
in the air that we didn’t breathe into each other,
I missed you today.

I thought of your smile.
It was there in the echoes of a hundred lunches,
cups of coffee and walks in the park,
it was there in the echoes of the rain and the
promise of the sunshine,
the sound that your voice makes when you say
“I love you…”
and I thought of your smile.

I thought of your beauty,
and the way that your mind fascinates me….
complex and still simple,
a rapid fire attack of ideas and concepts,
challenges of age old wisdom and simple
acquiescence to your internal demons…
and in it,
I thought of your beauty,
the way that your mind fascinates me.

I thought about us today,
the history and the promise,
the pull that keeps bringing us
to this space and time,
the knowledge that as long as I breathe air,
you will always be inside me,
the ghost of promise,
the thing of pain,
the love of eternity,
gone but not forgotten,
never fully apart.

I thought of you today and sent to you love,
and light,
and beauty….
and prayers of peace.
I thought of you today,
and I smiled.

~ily